Voyage to the edge of sleep

Lana del ray

2012-02-06T15:38:00.000+08:00

Swinging in the backyard
Pull up in your fast car
Whistling my name

Open up a beer
And you say get over here
And play a video game

I'm in his favorite sun dress
Watching me get undressed
Take that body downtown

I say you the bestest
Lean in for a big kiss
Put his favorite perfume on

Go play a video game

It's you, it's you, it's all for you
Everything I do
I tell you all the time
Heaven is a place on earth with you
Tell me all the things you want to do
I heard that you like the bad girls
Honey, is that true?
It's better than I ever even knew
They say that the world was built for two
Only worth living if somebody is loving you
Baby now you do

Singing in the old bars
Swinging with the old stars
Living for the fame

Kissing in the blue dark
Playing pool and wild darts

Video games

He holds me in his big arms
Drunk and I am seeing stars
This is all I think of

Watching all our friends fall
In and out of Old Paul's
This is my idea of fun
Playing video games

It's you, it's you, it's all for you
Everything I do
I tell you all the time
Heaven is a place on earth with you
Tell me all the things you want to do
I heard that you like the bad girls
Honey, is that true?
It's better than I ever even knew
They say that the world was built for two
Only worth living if somebody is loving you
Baby now you do

Adrian Lux feat. The Good Natured - Alive (Official Video)

2012-02-01T00:42:00.000+08:00

2012-01-27T17:27:00.000+08:00

2012-01-27T17:20:00.001+08:00

Splash~ by farlianaghani featuring a straw hat

Lipsy cropped shirt
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J brand legging
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ASOS patent leather shoes
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Lanvin clutch handbag
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Edge Of Urge long feather earrings
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H by Henry Holland straw hat
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Estee Lauder Bronze Goddess Golden Perfection Tinted Self-Tanning...
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Burberry 'Body' Eau de Parfum Intense Set
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mhd shf

2012-01-27T15:58:00.004+08:00

I feel hurt, but I'm keeping it from you. I don't wanna seem so weak, but truth is i am. I just am very happy when you are around. Then when you suddenly disappear and that you don't reply me.. i just tell myself to forget you. But that little hope in me of you coming back doesn't change. You talk to a lot of girls you claim are just friends.. well i am no different from them am i? I'm not special to you like you are to me. You suddenly come around and text me at the end of the day and then i reply you pretending nothing ever happened. But the fact is i tear sometimes wondering what am i to you. I'll just let go slowly.. I still hate the fact that when we first met, you were quite serious but i told you i dont want to commit yet and that i missed the chance to have you as mine.. Ive been hanging on for too long..its hurting me. You dont wanna be with me and i just dont know how to tell you how i really feel and all this emo shits..Its gonna get worst for me but i hope that im doing whats best for me, i'll miss you goodbye..

leave the lights on

2012-01-08T02:25:00.002+08:00

What happens if you get what you want but not what you need?

2012-01-07T02:57:00.000+08:00

I wish that without me your heart would break

I wish that without me you'd be spending the rest of your nights awake

I wish that without me you couldn't eat

I wish I was the last thing on your mind before you went to sleep

2012-01-03T01:49:00.000+08:00

We both know it's not what it seems

We both know what's between the sheets

2011-12-26T21:07:00.002+08:00

GUESS WHO BOUGHT ME F&TM NEW ALBUM GAHAHA YAY :>

thursday

2011-12-15T12:31:00.001+08:00

thursday by farlianaghani featuring navy flats

Matthew Williamson racer back tank
£61 - theoutnet.com

TopShop short cardigan
$76 - topshop.com

7 For All mankind
€199 - unger-fashion.com

TOMS navy flat
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MICHAEL Michael Kors michael kors tote bag
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Juicy Couture enamel bangle
$78 - couture.zappos.com

VIcenza stud earrings
£3.50 - debenhams.com

Benefit Dandelion Face Powder
$40 - asos.com

Benetint
$29 - benefitcosmetics.com

Benefit Benetint Lipbalm SPF 15
$20 - bloomingdales.com

2011-12-15T04:03:00.001+08:00

i feel like eating satay

2011-12-14T17:21:00.004+08:00

45kg, currently 51kg
175cm, currently 162cm
perfect teeth
smaller nose
smaller thighs
bigger eye
lighter lip colour
defined eyebrows
lighter hair colour
lovely nails
soft hands
longer eyelash
curves
ass
hairless body
even fair skin tone
a heart

2011-12-13T01:24:00.002+08:00

Im very confused. Oh wait.. again. What should i do :c

2011-12-09T16:07:00.001+08:00

Staying at home chatting Cleverbot with my sister hahahahaha

Growing up

2011-12-09T13:19:00.003+08:00

Just realised i had a great childhood. One that i can tell people and that could go on for one whole night! Now? Well Ive got clever bot to chat with.. haha Anyways! I went Korea last month! For a dance trip! I had a good time! I got myself a dress and a knitted cardigan and nope it didn't cause a hole in my pocket!

no guys it is not Chinese gardens! Stop it! hahahahaha i really went to Korea... and learnt a bit of kpop there!

Prom this year was great as well!

Sadly it ended quite early.. went to Sahara at Clarke Quay with my schoolmates and Esther booked a room at marina bay sands... so i spent my night there. I am looking for a job now! Seems like all the good ones have been taken! But nothing is ever too late! Okay i should stop with the "!" Anyways.. i am desperately looking for black shiny loafers

Oh and i met mia and mel two days back! I love them so much <3

Baaaaaaaaah Happy Holidays!!!

and i saw this at my cuzzies fb hahahahah

I'm in the center
hahahahahahahaha my god..

2011-11-18T14:03:00.001+08:00

Room tour~ hahahaha okay byebye

bringing my cat to korea~

haha gremlin's derp face

and tadaaaaa

2011 GCE O level Art Paper 1(final)!

Topic : Tangled

yes its real leaves :) and i shaped the pink front petals with real clay on canvas

The far left with real nets and sequins :)

A1 PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

2011-11-17T23:18:00.000+08:00

single

me gusta

2011-11-17T13:28:00.000+08:00

who run the world. boobs

2011-11-12T03:43:00.002+08:00

You know i really think that generally for boys they go by what i call "facts" and we on the other hand.. our feelings. We cant stop precisely thinking about how we feel when its "over". For them, its like well its over hell yeah I'm sad(they better be) but so what, if i was happy before i got to know her i can be happy now too.

For me, i get attach easily especially when that dickhead is funny. Say before i go to bed, things that happened on that day flashes before my eyes, i happened to think about how he walks the same speed as me how his sleeve of his shirt brushes mine occasionally, how he looks at me surprised when i tell him something I'm not suppose to on a first date like for an example i like babies do you? or i have never bowled in my life(yes that's true don't give me that face), how he effortlessly makes me laugh okay gotta stop there i can go on and on but..you get the point don't you?

The fact that i fell asleep wanting to be with the one that makes me laugh and so at that point of time it happens to be him, and wait a minute its just the first date i cant ask him where this is gonna go? whether he is in or out, whether I'm the only girl on his mind? I knew if he was gonna stick around for long, i wont even know how my friends look like, what my parents call me, even so how to wear a bra, cause I'm so in love. I don't want to do anything but to just say yes whenever he asks me out and just you know be with him all the time. God i miss that feeling.

If someone were to ask you, do you love him/her? theres this someone that appears on your mind. Shes it! Hes it! Get her/him or stay with her/him forever. For i should say life's too short c:

2011-11-10T16:02:00.001+08:00

please :c

2011-11-04T15:28:00.000+08:00

dear god please.. i really want this..

im 17 and i dont want to iron my uniform anymore

2011-11-03T03:43:00.000+08:00

Regrets collect like old friends

Here to relive your darkest moments

I can see no way, I can see no way

And all of the ghouls come out to play

And every demon wants his pound of flesh

But I like to keep some things to myself

I like to keep my issues strong

It's always darkest before the dawn

And I've been a fool and I've been blind

I can never leave the past behind

I can see no way, I can see no way

I'm always dragging that horse around

And our love is pastured such a mournful sound

Tonight I'm gonna bury that horse in the ground

So I like to keep my issues strong

But it's always darkest before the dawn

And it's hard to dance with a devil on your back

So shake him off, oh woah

I am done with my graceless heart

So tonight I'm gonna cut it out and then restart

Cause I like to keep my issues strong

It's always darkest before the dawn

Shake it out, shake it out,

And it's hard to dance with a devil on your back

So shake him off, oh woah

And given half the chance would I take any of it back

It's a fine romance but it's left me so empty

It's always darkest before the dawn

And I'm damned if I do and I'm damned if I don't

So here's to drinks in the dark at the end of my road

And I'm ready to suffer and I'm ready to hope

It's a shot in the dark and right at my throat

Cause looking for heaven, found a devil in me

Looking for heaven, found a devil in me

Well what the hell I'm gonna let it happen to me

Shake it out

And it's hard to dance with a devil on your back

So shake him off, oh woah

titanium

2011-10-29T03:33:00.000+08:00

I'm very upset

ロン毛　マンチカンの戦い２

2011-10-25T01:29:00.000+08:00

no no dont say a word... i know how exactly you feel :(

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

please listen

2011-10-23T02:53:00.001+08:00

My wounded rhymes make silent cries tonight

eh why you so fat?

2011-10-23T02:35:00.000+08:00

I don't know if i can make it.. i feel like giving up now and then. I feel that my drive to do well isn't there anymore. Look at me.. i screwed my English oral.. my science practical. I don't want to know whats next.. I hate this. The reason i don't think positively sometimes its because i feel that i am just pretending that the problems aren't there almost as if like I'm running away from em. I do a lot of reality check these days like doing ten year series without looking at the answers. I did 2010 math paper last year and i got 42/100 and worst, it is known to be an easy paper. I'm worried for English as well. You have no idea how low i can get for my comprehension.. Along with the other subjects, I'm really scared.. Next year when i take my cert, i want to feel like i need to run home and show my dad my results. Not wonder what I'm gonna do next.. while all of my friends set a date for an "audition for best friend" in their new poly courses.

Apart from that sad sad life story of mine.. i won two ticket to wave house sentosa and 2 movie tickets hahah see when they say theres a fat soul living in my thin body.. gee thanks McDonald's. AND I NEED 511 to get a macbook.

Note to self : queue up everyday for these god damn free stuff if i dont pass Os

but shit. it expires this year.. so kfc....hoho nightnight

Florence + The Machine - What The Water Gave Me

2011-10-23T01:26:00.001+08:00

Time it took us
To where the water was
That's what the water gave me
And time goes quicker
Between the two of us
Oh, my love, don't forsake me
Take what the water gave me

Anxiety attack!

2011-10-13T01:08:00.002+08:00

myggggggod o levels... i don't know if i should be happy that its gon be over soon or or i should be scared that its coming. This is a nightmare i swear :c

i cant believe i stayed at burger king the whole day. Had my breakfast and lunch there.. Sheesh.. Goodnightsfvfvrfjvjerfheffrerfcsgjuijwfefn!

Shock me like an electric eel

2011-09-27T01:01:00.002+08:00

I am very motivated to do math these few days, jokes aside true story. Hope that's gon last! Ive got the future in my hands. Come'on ana. Its just this month do whatever it takes. For gods sake jersey shore is just temporarily making you happy, classified under guilty pleasure. Think about the hot tub and your glass house that awaits you when you get out of your private plane thats gon land on the air strip next to your house and yes excuse me while i make full use of my new purchased boyfriend; 1962 Maserati 3500.
Anyways right just thought about how without money you cant buy anything likewise, you cant buy everything with money. Goodnight.. the owls are hooting and it still hurts for some reason... i still fall apart now and then... what happen to in a matter of time :/
Anyway I'm craving for subway cookies.. I'll do anything. :c this feeling sucks i mean who wakes up in the middle of the night and craves for cookies. Tsk.. and man...skittles would be perfect too.. omg skittle cookies. eee kay omg goodjngjight

2011-09-25T00:02:00.000+08:00

2011-09-24T23:59:00.002+08:00

Rhiena : To the window to the wall haha

2011-09-24T23:57:00.002+08:00

2011-09-14T02:22:00.001+08:00

sagwa is my bestfriend weee

2011-08-23T00:23:00.003+08:00

As weird as this may sound right, its very comforting to see Gremblin sleeping on my bed after a long day at school. How she curls up like a giant fur ball at the edge of my bed. Aside from that, I'm under heavy pressure from my dad that apparently thinks that i cant make it for Os. I cant say anything right now to shut him up because Ive this feeling that all my prelim papers are gon be badly done and needless to say dads just gon rub it to my face when he sees my report card. I mean, I'm assured that prelims are meant to be hard and its a norm to fail, just that i fear I'm taking it too easy. Times like this i wish i could purchase a brain with high IQ from eBay, rather than cracking my head over an unsolved sum or an endless equation. Whats worst, my language.. don't even get me started. I just want to prove him wrong.

Oh and yes, i dropped my phone in the toilet bowl last week. Haha and what about people saying they can’t believe in miracles because miracles don’t fit the laws of nature? My phone is still working despite where it had been. Yes, don't even think about it. Gracious god, poor hands of mine.. haha are you eww-ing yet?

Withdrawal. Isolation. Detachment. Loneliness. Exile. Solitude.

Class

2011-08-19T17:03:00.001+08:00

Class by farlianaghani featuring clutch hand bags

Tusnelda Bloch black top
€30 - styleserver.de

Tulle skirt
£39 - coast-stores.com

May Snaffle Trim Loafers
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Clutch hand bag
€55 - modekungen.se

DKNY sparkle jewelry
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Linda Farrow black round sunglasses
$439 - coggles.com

CO OP Barneys New York long belt
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Buy Parker Sonnet Gold Trim Fountain Pen, Black Lacquer online at...
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kcalb

2011-08-19T17:02:00.001+08:00

kcalb by farlianaghani featuring art deco jewelry

Cartier art deco jewelry
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Black Chelsea Shoe
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Wrinkle Effect Belt
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Mens Shirts - Clothing - TOPMAN
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Black Chino Shorts - Mens Shorts - Clothing - TOPMAN
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Anthony Logistics Hair Gel-Alcohol Free
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2011-08-19T14:47:00.000+08:00

god i miss my long hair.

yeah knew i was gon say it

2011-08-15T16:01:00.000+08:00

2011-08-13T22:05:00.000+08:00

The world is full of kings and queens, who blind your eyes and steal your dreams.

Right now, its just so uncertain. I wish i was rich so i don't have to worry so much or dream too much. I'm not asking for too much right or am i? All i could do now is just sit in silent hope. Rain money on my roof tonight please. Exactly $2500 would be good enough.

2011-08-10T15:28:00.000+08:00

Do what you feel now
Electric feel now

Ma

2011-08-06T01:44:00.003+08:00

My mum and dad are two separate creatures. They’re not better or worse than each other. They’re just different.

I admire my mum. She is a strong woman and shes someone I wouldn't want to tangle with in a dark alley. I admire her for her patience and ability to put up with so much of my dad. Shes been through it all, you name it. I just don't know what to say dad because I saw it in her eyes when she told me all the things you did that caused her heart to ache.

I cannot tell you how much I owe to the solemn word of my good mother. -Charles Haddon Spurgeon

swag

2011-08-04T23:46:00.010+08:00

Its a schizophrenic wonder when it suddenly rains.. so its Thursday and tomorrow Friday! Partly because i hate the fact that when i come back home from school, I'll get cranky. I'll stop being grouchy just before bed, where I'll be the most hyped up.

I would go around and annoy people instead. Especially when my two mini voldermonts are doing their homework at the very end of the day simply cause they procrastinate a lot that would eventually lead them to postpone or delay needlessly, whatever homework they have to do. And yes, i have grown tired telling them umpteen times to get their homework done as early as possible so they can be free at night. But noooo.. the TV is more important oh oh it can improve your English.. and food.. you have to be eating 24/7 so you wont die out of malnutrition. They can give me tons of excuses, very creative and original haha

As for me, as usual I'll be either be glued to the computer or most probably do a little revision here and there.

I came back home before 7pm today, ate dinner, bathed and settled myself to do a little bit of math. I frowned as i was towards the end of finding the answers to solve my simultaneous equation. Then in the background, i could sense a comical conversation between my dad and my sisters. They were talking about the right way to

march.

My dad was talking about his olden days, how they use to train them for a parade, and worst he was showing them live demonstrations .. i mean... nvmd... true story.. I tried to kill myself afterwards but there was a leftover cheesecake in the fridge and i pampered myself with a slice.

2011-08-01T22:38:00.000+08:00

I did it, like a boss. Dammit first day oni. Goodnight world.

2011-07-31T23:20:00.004+08:00

Hey wazzop wazzop hah. So first day of the um fasting month is tomorrow. This means that i may eat or drink nothing, including water, while the sun shines. Well I've been told that fasting serves many purposes. While we Muslims are hungry and thirsty, we are reminded of the suffering of the poor. And i guess its an opportunity to practice self-control, also it cleanse our body and mind!

Well... on the other side. Well my side haha. I still remember vividly the first day of the fasting month last year when one of my classmate, girija offered me sweets. She didn't know that its the month of Ramadan and me being me.. haha i popped one in my mouth. About 3 seconds i ran to the toilet and spit it out in the sink. I didn't know whether i was gonna laugh or cry hah. True storey guys. Then in the afternoon, right after school i stopped by the water cooler to drink. Someone from the back shouted at me, ANA YOU ARE FASTING! Instead of asking me whether I'm fasting, this person knows me too well. Tomorrow is gonna be interesting.

Right past the fireflies that sleep in my heart.

2011-07-30T01:49:00.006+08:00

In the afternoon. You're out on the stone and grass. And I'm sleeping on the balcony
After class thinking to myself..(from vw bryn lyrics)

"I'll search for you in every man i love.."

I awoke from a deep sleep with my mind fully awake but my body still asleep. I struggled to move myself from the state i was in for a little while. Upon finding myself fully awake, i took in deep breaths of air feeling bewildered. As the smell of the damp earth fills my lungs, it beckoned me that i had slept through a rainy night.

I sat upright on the edge of my bed still in the state of confusion. Then dragged myself out of bed to get ready for school. I hit the showers with my shoulders still cold and my toes feeling numb. It was half past 7 in the morning and there was a high possibility of myself being late for school if i were to continue in that current pace. So i rushed out of the house without having my hair combed or my shoe lace tied. I hurried down the stairs and skipped few steps in between hoping it would be faster. By accident, my phone fell out of my pocket.

I picked up my phone to see the time flashed up on the screen. Needless to say i was going to be late. I placed my phone on the concrete floor and tied my shoe lace to prevent myself from tripping over it. I grabbed my phone and walked faster then i previously did. I took a second look on my phone screen, it was just then i realise it was a Sunday.

2011-07-13T21:06:00.002+08:00

whats purple and nice..

yam pao la abo then

2011-07-04T17:17:00.002+08:00

2011-06-28T17:44:00.002+08:00

Would you stay if she promised you heaven?

green lantern

2011-06-27T21:10:00.002+08:00

So a china lady dropped her coin by accident. She went down a second later than me. So i picked it up for her.. she sorta moan then thank me. Like ooahhhh thaonk kiuw.. and it made my day -,- hahaha so funny the oahhhh thaonk kiuw ah

oh and in school today! Ms phays back.. and so is everything else. So she found out that a group of boys from 5/1 rent a bicycle during their cip. and their excuse was.. you can pick up litter faster while riding the bike.. granum and friends never change haha

Wonderwall

2011-06-26T00:55:00.002+08:00

2011-06-25T12:12:00.001+08:00

GARRET POPCORN is orgasmiccccccccccc hehe

and check this out -'-

happymangonightypour

2011-06-23T21:41:00.000+08:00

i got nu converse high top in blue and polo sneaks in white and im not dreaming hekhek(s)

2011-06-23T16:53:00.000+08:00

if you think that i'll be fine. think again

2011-06-22T19:17:00.000+08:00

I didn't know that breath should be held when passing by the cemetery because breathing is disrespectful to the dead.

lets go barbie.. sure ken

2011-06-22T19:04:00.002+08:00

The sudden panic attack over the fact that o level is just a few months away.. feels like theres ten thousand terrorist wearing baju kurung pointing their guns at my head asking me to draw their portraits in 30 seconds.
Specially thank O level art.. for being such a pain in the arse. True story guys. sucks big time.

Thought i might ask.. would you rather change your past or see the future? or watch jersey shore dammit laa summers over manx grr gon miss it.

okay omg omg i found something.. okay so um i dont know which year it was..there was a boy taking his O level Art exam. And those who take up Art knows how the final piece is crucial. The theme for that year was 'Courage', This dude prep work was awesome. The million of ideas he had just came streaming........

HE HANDED UP A BLANK PIECE OF PAPER AFTER THREE HOURS.

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.
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AND SCORED A *!@#$%-KING HIGH DISTINCTION.

-,-... -,- one more one more........... -,-

skin and bones

2011-06-21T15:08:00.002+08:00

Okay maybe im just a little hurt.. i'll get over it somehow.. Guess i get attached too easily. I mean thought everything was going fine. So many maybes in my head. Maybe im not the only one.. Maybe its just the truth that youre saying. Then again i barely know you. So i'll look at it this way.. better now than later. Well.. i had baskin robbins today with my friends. They never fail to light up my day, so im good c: i asked them to name me an actress and an actor to replace bella and edward from twilight.. we even got a perfect scene where edward and bella had sex where they broke the bed.

kurt cullen and mercedes swan hahaha

relate

2011-06-15T15:57:00.000+08:00

Lovin my nu hair hehe at the same time cant wait for em to grow

weird..

So... do you sit in your towel after a shower because you’re too lazy to get dressed? You and your best friend can say one word, and crack up. You hate it when people think you like someone when you clearly don’t. You feel like if you turn on the lights, you will be safe from anything. You push those little buttons on the lids of fast-food drinks. You laugh until people get hurt, then stop when you realize it’s serious. You hate it when parents get serious about something funny you tell them. You hate when you tell a guy to shut up and they copy you in a higher voice. You pretend to sleep when your parents come in. You text the person next to you things that you can’t say out loud. You’re always tired no matter how much sleep you get. You use the “sup” head nod. You hate when you are mad at someone and they make you laugh. You check the fridge every ten seconds to see if food magically appeared. Youuuu addddd unnecessaryyyyy letterssssss attttt theeee enddddd of wordssss

2011-06-11T04:13:00.000+08:00

I feel alive already. Dear god. I love your plans.

2011-06-11T03:33:00.001+08:00

I love my friends. Had fun at Rachel's.. couldn't stay over cause I'm going to Malaysia later on grrr... Still yet to pack my bag..so tired. Am i the only soul that wishes to have normal school days instead of a term break.. cause I'm not studying. Its bad.. oh my god...

Go ahead, go way low, where I can do no harm.....

thats how we roll

2011-06-07T01:54:00.001+08:00

Well i can safely say that Ive moved on? I'm contented with my life, i got my hair cut. Yeah i know right tsk tsk whats wrong with me I'm depress.*Corrections i was. I mean what could be worst, i hated waking up in the morning, i hate it when i toss and turn at night semi-conscious, thinking about what i did past few months ago which i regretted and wished i photoshopped everything back to how it used to be. Now looking back, i laugh to myself sometimes like theres one moment when i cried over the phone begging and pleading him not to go. Only to figure myself being hurt more after each call. Never thought i do that cause i used to make fun of girls who cry over their dudes. Its so stupid. Still is actually. But cant deny it, it hurts. Thing is its my fault, it beats you huh. But It sure made me stronger in a way. No ones perfect, i know i was wrong. Still I'm dying with every step i take but i don't look back. You knew my strengths, my weaknesses, my dreams and my biggest fear.When love is true it will find its way out so goodbye apathy and bless the girl you sincerely love.

im looking for a fighting fish. Qian hu is awesome haha. Going to uss tmr with atika cant wait and thats how we roll. Goodnight world!

2011-06-06T02:41:00.000+08:00

i want a betta fish so bad...they are for $1.. How can they be so cheap? Its such a shame.. so colourful.. Oh i went to the science centre souvenir shop just now... my oh my i wanted to buy everything. Especially the ant farm omgomgomgomgomg ant farm. yes ant farm #@$#@%#$@#$@# I'm hungry bye. oh i saw the astronaut icecream

2011-05-31T02:14:00.002+08:00

fight fight fight

2011-05-31T02:03:00.000+08:00

I hate how when i get in the bus and all the inner seats are empty but the outer seats are taken. Seriously.. and they look like they are so tired to move, so that you can seat by the window. Its so..grr Anyways Ive been thinking about keeping a pet fish. Like this one right here. A fighting fish.. THEY CAN FIGHT.. i know.. like gremblin, my cat. It hisses at everyone. Especially rhiena mye... tsk tsk. It keeps a look out at the window for birds, sits and stares fixedly at a stationary object most of the time, like wires or ntuc plastic bag. I wish there was a cat sized hamster wheel man, gremblin always looks bored and frustrated, like shes sick of living. Ya.. but now.. i want a fish. Its so pretty, look at it fly.

tadaaaaaa

i would wanna name it flux or mary

tmr deanne bday going to arab street!

hehe

2011-05-31T02:00:00.000+08:00

2011-05-29T10:35:00.001+08:00

I wish my dream had just continued just a little bit longer. I wish it was real I wish it was real I wish it was I wish real I wish it was real I wish it was real I wish it was I wish real I wish it was real I wish it was real I wish it was I wish real I wish it was real I wish it was real I wish it was real I wish it was real I wish it was I wish real I wish it was real I wish it was real I wish it was I wish real I wish it was real I wish it was real I wish it was I wish real I wish it was real I wish it was real.

but you're long gone
I'm gon eat waffles and watch lots of smosh and shane dawson's vids ):<

2011-05-23T22:08:00.002+08:00

if you had no choice but to pick one as your date.

which one?

hahahahahahaha

syabas!

2011-05-23T21:56:00.000+08:00

syabas kepada anda!

Why does my malay suck so bad? its okay, still got one week i believe in miracles. hahaha noo nooo imma gon die. Matahari bersinarrr.. hujan turun degan lebatnya. Dia berak cair sambil tidur.. -,-

im going to pray tonight with my eyes closed(true story).

2011-05-21T20:28:00.000+08:00

something orgasmic just happened i just borrowed an awesome art book from the library and i think I'm going to bath now hahahaha kay been webcam-ing a lot

2011-05-21T00:15:00.002+08:00

Pepsi?

2011-05-20T18:13:00.002+08:00

2011-05-15T21:58:00.001+08:00

I hope this time we'd be good friends c; and to celebrate I'll paint my nails red. CANT WAIT FOR TMR hoho. Dianne's birthdayyyyyyy

blinding illumination

2011-05-12T22:49:00.000+08:00

I feel comfortably numb somehow.

Its weird and empty.

Yet so peaceful

2011-05-11T21:29:00.003+08:00

Come out moon

Come out wishing star

Come out

Wherever you are

I’m alone here in the dark

All alone and wide awake

Come and find me

I’m empty and I’m cold

And my heart is about to break

Come and find me

I need you to come here and find me

Cause without you I’m totally lost

I've hung a wish on every star
It hasn’t done much good so far

I can only dream of you

Wherever you are

I’ll hear you laugh

I’ll see you smile

I’ll be with you just for a while

But when the morning comes

And the sun begins to rise

I’ll lose you

Because it’s just a dream

When I open up my eyes

I’ll lose you

I use to believe in forever

But forever is to good to be true

I've hung a wish on every star

It hasn’t done much good so far

I don’t know what else to do

Except to try to dream of you

And wonder if you are dreaming to

Wherever you are

hehe this song i use to listen to it

2011-05-10T21:09:00.001+08:00

omg why do i feel like talking to you 0.0 nooooooo.

2011-05-06T23:33:00.001+08:00

Hold no grudges against you, for life is too short, so I'll forgive and forget. The one lie i ever heard from you, stained in my head.

I just wished the nicer side of you existed.

cosy and cold

2011-05-05T14:27:00.000+08:00

Laying in bed wondering how come it hurts?

Man i think i better start studying, osama's dead, thats a sign.

LYKKE LI interview

2011-05-01T14:10:00.001+08:00

Some people throw garlic at me haha

now i know how to pronounce her name!

Lykke li as in lick key lee.

All this while Ive been saying like lee
love her accent haha i love her!

Red rum

2011-04-30T22:13:00.003+08:00

Red rum by FarlianaGhani

Jeans

22 GBP - desireclothing.co.uk

Black Lace Bodysuit

bangonthetrend.co.uk

SOLE espadrille sandal

$50 - topshop.com

Alexander McQueen black handbag

1,195 GBP - matchesfashion.com

G by Guess heart bracelet

$19 - gbyguess.com

Betsey Johnson vintage silver earring

$30 - zappos.com

Sterling silver jewelry

$50 - kohls.com

Illesteva tortoise sunglass

$160 - lagarconne.com

Bobbi Brown - Lip Color Nude

$30 - yesstyle.com

Bobbi Brown Long-Wear Gel Eyeliner

$21 - nordstrom.com

Mentos strawberry flavor chewy mint (salvsnena)

$9.44 - americarx.com

Davidoff Cool Water Woman eau de toilette

34 GBP - houseoffraser.co.uk

Im just so bored you know. Knaw whak im sayin'? so wanna be a ghetto? haha byebye
- mangotree94!

unrequited love

2011-04-30T18:22:00.000+08:00

Rather live out a lie than live wondering.

2011-04-30T18:19:00.000+08:00

Jerome -Lykke Li
Get some -Lykke Li
Paris Blue -Lykke Li
Swimming -Florence and the machine
Falling -Florence and the machine
On the radio -The Concretes
Amazing -Inna
Time to pretend -Mgmt
Rolling in deep -Adele
Mowgli's Road -Marina and the diamonds
Quicksand -La roux
Misguided ghosts -Paramore
Teenage crime -Adrian lux
Dakota -Stereophonics
Intuition -Feist
Inside and out -Feist

i'll make you feel like youre the only gay in this world :)

2011-04-27T23:58:00.001+08:00

I know ive got exams to sit for tmr. I feel that someone's watching me sleep kinda creepy hehe. Got my ass up here to share something. i dont know wthr i should cry or laugh about it. Soo.... guess how i woke up this morning. My dad switched on the god damn lights(er i tot hate that), and starts cheering. He went like P.A.P.. P.A.P. the constant bellowing in my ear sure got me out of bed. Oh then it comes with a finale. He picked up gremblin and went C.A.T.. C.A.T. It makes me want to fake my own death and assume a false identity. Or i think i may just go ahead and do it. I just have to make my death look like an accident. Car wreck won't work I'd probably live! More to come.. practical science exam tmr. I only know how to put on my goggles. God bless me.

2011-04-17T21:17:00.001+08:00

Whats on his pea mind.

2011-04-17T20:52:00.002+08:00

Alright so i just got home from my aunts place. My cousin and i were talking about grandpa. My grandma was having weird dreams about him. Once she told us that, in her dream, grandpa asked her why her elder sister is so lazy. I know its so weird right, of all the things he could say. But mum told me that its true, when he passed away, she didn't help out or anything. Mum told my cousin that just a day ago when he passed away, grandpa was sitting opposite of grandma face to face in the living room. He asked grandma, do you love me?

I still cant believe he's not around anymore. You know he used to cycle to the mosque every morning to pray there. He was healthy, his cause of death was caused by brain hemorrhage. I miss him. When I'm over at my grandma's place, i always have this urge to ask hows grandpa. It'll take me awhile to figure out. I always wonder how it feels like be in her shoes, i mean they've been together like for so long. I wonder is shes okay. I have no doubt that she sure is a strong woman.

"Can you at least pretend to care" Its one of the things i remember you saying. Why must all good things come to an end?

2011-04-16T15:08:00.000+08:00

intuition..

2011-04-16T01:22:00.001+08:00

Friday. Am just wondering how things can change on the slightest variations or decisions we make. Anyways, i visited the fountain of wealth just now. Apparently, its the biggest man-made fountain in the world. Haha. Lifes good so far. Gotta sleep alone tonight! My sister went for her scouts camp haha yes don't bother i typed it right, scouts camp haha shes in scouts, and its called the unicorn something. Ive got to get up early for chemistry tomorrow :( its 1 am im so scared to sleep meeeh i need 5 blankets to wrap me. Ive got only 4 now. :(

Ive heard that good things fall apart so better things can come together.

2011-04-16T00:52:00.000+08:00

What gives, what helps

The Intuition

I'll know, I'll know

I won't have to be shown

The way home

And it's not about a boy

Although, although

They can lead you

Break or defeat you

A destination known

Only by the one

Whose fate is overgrown

Piecemeal could break your home

In half

A love is not complete

With only heat

They can tease you

Break or complete you

And in came a heatwave

A merciful save

You choose, you chose

Poetry over prose

A map is more unreal than where you've been

Or how you feel

A map is more unreal than where you've been

Or how you feel

And it's impossible to tell

How important someone was

And what he might have missed out on

And how he might have changed it all

And how you might have changed it all for him

And did I, did I

And did I, did I miss out on you?

From the bottom of my heart.

2011-04-13T21:31:00.000+08:00

Okay i feel like saying this. haha so weird. But meeeeeh. Well so we had a mini graduation ceremony at the dance studio. Besides all the crying haha I'm happy that i have met you guys. Without the dancers, I'll be forever alone or who knows i might take up gardening as my cca hee. I'd like to thank Mr Micheal, Dr danny tan and all the dancers. I'm so blessed to have you guys in my life.. You have been there with the uncompromising word of god! Its been always great to be around you guys. If i had a place to run too. that'd be in all of my dancers arms(a little creepy but i'll manage) i don't know what i talking about. Oh my goks. this is home truly, surely. where i know i forever ever must be. This is where i wont be forever aloneeeeeeee. Its the littlest things in life that makes it great, isn't? Tmr is turseday, then comes fried egg. we so excitedz tmr. i know what is angkat bola hehe.

2011-04-12T18:00:00.000+08:00

Okay haha i finally know the meaning of angkat bola -,- hahahaha. And theres no school this friday like woo! Now im off to tuition1 bye boobx hee

Adele - Someone Like You (on 'Later Live with Jools Holland') - Nov 2010

2011-04-10T15:00:00.002+08:00

2011-04-10T15:00:00.001+08:00

I heard that you're settled down.
That you found a girl and you're married now.
I heard that your dreams came true.
Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you.

Old friend, why are you so shy?
It ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I'd hoped you'd see my face & that you'd be reminded,
That for me, it isn't over.

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you.
I wish nothing but the best for you too.
Don't forget me, I beg, I'll remember you said:
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead"
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead.

You'd know how the time flies.
Only yesterday was the time of our lives.
We were born and raised in a summer haze.
Bound by the surprise of our glory days.

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I'd hoped you'd see my face & that you'd be reminded,
That for me, it isn't over yet.

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you.
I wish nothing but the best for you too.
Don't forget me, I beg, I'll remember you said:
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead".

Nothing compares, no worries or cares.
Regret's and mistakes they're memories made.
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you.
I wish nothing but the best for you too.
Don't forget me, I beg, I'll remember you said:
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead"

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you.
I wish nothing but the best for you too.
Don't forget me, I beg, I'll remember you said:
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead"
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead.

2011-04-08T19:25:00.002+08:00

I cant seem to figure it out. Should i or should i not..? :(

2011-04-06T20:36:00.000+08:00

2011-04-04T22:12:00.000+08:00

a silence that spoke for itself c:

2011-04-03T11:47:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I wish for falling, wish for the release. Wish for falling through the air to give me some relief. Because falling's not the problem, when I'm falling I'm in peace. It's only when I hit the ground it causes all the grief.

I don't want to wakeupppppppppp
spent the whole day watching 90210 yesterday, figure it was already 12am when i told myself its time i do my homework. and I'm like forgeeet it..... haha (likeaboss)

dirty saturday morning

2011-04-02T12:41:00.001+08:00

dont want too see my bed looking neat today

have a great day ahead

We take sour sips from life's lush lips

2011-04-01T22:43:00.000+08:00

oh my gokz so fast april mampus sia babi hutanzxc C;

2011-03-28T23:35:00.001+08:00

Well.. After all the things i heard. Perhaps, ignorance is bliss. I know i tend to get insecure sometimes, but doesn't matter anymore. Shes been on your mind, and well.. why did i even bother, after all i meant nothing. I'm blessed with good friends. hell yeah.

oh man tmr syf. gonna set 3 alarms, must be out of the house by 5am! I'm gonna sleep in my costume hahahaha i love my friends ahh. i love em until i cannot love em anymore-,- .wish we all lived together gather. But without Mr tan and Mr Micheal we be nowhere! hehe life.. i like it when I'm busy.

love haha what love..

2011-03-27T15:30:00.000+08:00

As the sun grows high and you serve your time,
Does each day just feel like another lie?

In an endless night, could you feel the fright
Of an age that was and could never be?
So we hold it close when we feel the most
Like a love that we could not leave behind

Turn the wheel to each way we feel
Till I'm lost and I cannot find you there

2011-03-26T09:55:00.000+08:00

Young at heart and so full of life. In tears I came to his bedside to say goodbye. Rest in God's loving arms,till we see each other once again. We'll miss you grandpa.

Before the worst.

2011-03-20T19:21:00.001+08:00

School starts tomorrow, guilt will eat me alive tonight due to incomplete homework. Besides that, im in such pain that one would feel after getting run down a by a rubbish truck(no idea how that feels actually, but you get the point). Dance practises these days are just draining me. Been out in the scorching sun and dancing on the black mat that radiates heat just does it worse. You know i now have second thoughts of taking up dance as a career or profession. Dubious much. Wouldn't it be funny if i went to school tmr and be chased by the school counsellor, cause I'm covered in bruise. Hardcore training continues till syf is over and done with. But mm.. i love dancing. still.. Its all gonna be worthwhile anyway! Gold with honours Now I'll go figure excuses for not doing my homework. They have to be original you guys..

Anyway lots of adele and feist song lyrics are pretty cool. Been listening to them. But florence is still rocking my world and lykke li.. i like her prev album better tho. What i do without florence right shes the rainbow sprinkles to my vanilla ice cream heh ^^. Oh and i heard about rebecca black.. so talented. Till then fried eggs(friday) fried eggs(friday) you guys.

Voyage to the edge of sleep

Lana del ray

Adrian Lux feat. The Good Natured - Alive (Official Video)

mhd shf

leave the lights on

thursday

Growing up

me gusta

who run the world. boobs

please :c

titanium

ロン毛 マンチカンの戦い２

please listen

eh why you so fat?

Florence + The Machine - What The Water Gave Me

Anxiety attack!

Shock me like an electric eel

Class

kcalb

Ma

swag

Right past the fireflies that sleep in my heart.

green lantern

Wonderwall

happymangonightypour

lets go barbie.. sure ken

skin and bones

relate

thats how we roll

fight fight fight

Pepsi?

blinding illumination

cosy and cold

LYKKE LI interview

Red rum

unrequited love

i'll make you feel like youre the only gay in this world :)

intuition..

From the bottom of my heart.

Adele - Someone Like You (on 'Later Live with Jools Holland') - Nov 2010

dirty saturday morning

Before the worst.

ロン毛　マンチカンの戦い２